Feeling Empty

I went to the thrift store tonight and found some good stuff. There are two thrift stores on Cedar Street, here in Lansing, that have 50% off most everything the last Tuesday of the month. Anyway, while I was shopping I noticed the maternity clothes and that made me sad. August 1st of this year I had a miscarriage. I was just about 10 weeks along so I wasn't showing and we'd only told a few people. The song that went through my head at the time and that continues to play through my mind has a line "you give and take a way, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, blessed be your name". I know that God loves me and I trust him. But, I don't understand why after three text book pregnancies the fourth had to end as it did. Did I do something wrong? What if I'd gone to the doctor sooner? What would the baby have been like? Why do I feel so empty tonight?

Christmas

Well, since my dear husband included this site in the contact info section of our Christmas newsletter, I thought I'd better write another post.

Last night I took our dino-boy (he turned six this month) with me to the store. The clerk asked if he was excited about Christmas. He told her "Yes, I'm excited to celebrate Jesus birth." Yea! He knows what Christmas is really about.

We will be celebrating with my in-laws on Saturday and my parents after church on Sunday. I'm happy that we will be joining them in their homes (which means I don't have to fix a big meal - thanks Reta and Mom).

Dino-boy is at my in-law's today playing Lego-Robots with his Granddad and it's almost time for the girls to get up from their nap so I'll close this post with a "Merry Christmas".